Life update – March 2010

Sometimes life goes on,  days; weeks; months pass, and we fail to take notice. Time and again, I’ve a tendency to retrospect. Whether or not I  use the conclusions to adjust my life’s direction – no written rules.

For me, leaving Bangalore felt as if I am a spider who has been thrown out of its web. Slowly and steadily, I’ve started knitting a niche of life in Hyderabad. Work seems worthwhile and I look forward to make a difference each day – at work and otherwise.

So where is my life going? What are the next steps? I’ve never been able to answer this question – never in my lifetime. I didn’t become an engineer because I had planned to. I just genuinely developed liking for computers in my early years, and chose the direction my heart guided me toward. If I had listened to my mind, I would have been a doctor. Anyways, the point is, my life is going where my heart dictates..

It has been an enriching experience to get in touch with Devansh again (FYI he’s pursuing PhD in Humanities). We keep having frequent discussions on a lot of issues – can a robot feel; being aware of ‘self’; intention vs action – to name a few, most discussions revolving around human beings, their minds and phenomenon associated with them.

The most recent one – intention vs action. We were discussing my last post “Pinch of salt“. We concluded that generally we judge people by their actions, but whenever we try to justify ourselves (in others’ eyes or our own), we judge us by our intentions. “He DID this” compared to “I DID this, BUT I INTENDED to do that”.

In his opinion, if someone doesn’t live upto our expectations, there can be two reasons – wrong intentions, incompetence. In case we know that the person is incompetent (for example a small kid drops a glass), we don’t get hurt or angered. However, if we believe that the person is competent, but his intentions were wrong, we get hurt. More often than not, people intend to do good,  but aren’t skilled enough to achieve it. If we look at the world with this perspective, it feels like a much better place to live in.

Anyways,  coming back to the original topic, I’ve started to enjoy life here. Parag and gang play squash on weekends – I’m learning it too (though my leg injury is preventing me from playing too much, but I’ll be fine soon).

I’m eagerly waiting to go home, although that can happen only in May. I’ve a newly born nephew, but unfortunately I can’t see him in this state for real. The next home trip is going to be awesome – 65 days to go, 64.99999, 64.99998 …

PS: I hope everyone has my new cell phone number in Hyderabad. Or just ask.

Adios.