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Alvida 2009

We’re living the final 24 hours of 2009. It would be too boring if I sit down listing everything that happened during this year.

The two biggest life changing things that happened to me this year would be – my first ever foreign trip (to California), me leaving Yahoo! (as an employee, although I still bleed purple).

We all want a bright future (why not, after-all we have only one life to live), we always plan something or the other. Every plan has a theory, as to why it’ll work out. Whenever asked about our plans, we explain the plan, and convince the other person with our theory.

As for me, I don’t see a definite plan right now. I don’t have a theory as to why the current state is the best possible. Most of my plans are more of intuition and gut feelings; it has been like this from the time I was a little baby.

I discovered something new about myself today, I don’t repent on, crib on the past. What is done is done, tomorrow will be a new day again!

Anyways, tomorrow is 1 January 2010. Happy new year everyone. Hope this year brings prosperity and happiness in your lives.

Not another “Avatar” review

Not that I get too many original thoughts, but it is a fair Neural networkdisclaimer that the current post contains a lot of borrowed ones. Avatar, the movie, is an awesome fictious creation, nonetheless it has many thought provoking concepts.

Since ever our cultural history has taught us that our body is only a medium to interact with the world, and it perishes with time; what remains is the soul. This unscientific concept feels so logical now.

The voice that speaks inside our head, that makes us feel the presence of an “I”, what is it?

The body is like a really well designed machine, which takes instructions from the brain. The brain is a really well designed processor that computes things on the input it receives, and the memories it has stored. Everyone’s “processor” computes different outputs even if the inputs are exactly same.

For simplicity, I could say, all persons have identical brains, but different software running on it, so that everyone has a different “business logic” for the same inputs. If I could copy this software and data elsewhere, on a new brain, there would be a new “me”.

Building upon this, I wonder why we have only one conscious state? What if we had 2 bodies and 1 brain controlling both? Unlike the movie “Avatar”, if our brains are so powerful (and things like split personality have been seen), perhaps it should be possible to control more than one body at a time. It is as good as being in 2 places at the same time!

Building (more fiction) upon this, what if I had 2 brains and 2 bodies that could communicate? Then, I would be like a distributed organism living inside two bodies, and my thoughts would be distributed among two brains!

Think. Adios.

What does Bangalore mean to me?

Yahoo! BangaloreIt is once again time for a great phase in my life to end, only to start another awesome one. About two years ago – 29th July 2007 to be precise – I landed in Bangalore to commence my first full time job. It was a dream come true to work for Yahoo!, one of the most amazing places to work at. As the company rightly puts it, “fun” is one of its core values.

The best thing about Bangalore has been its pleasant weather all year round – the summers are not too hot, accompanied by light showers in evenings; the winters are just cold enough to enjoy it; and well, rains are my favorite anywhere anytime. The crime rate “appears to be” really low, and I feel very safe living in here.

There are no words to describe the Yahoo! experience – the vast range of learning opportunities, the endless ever-increasing challenges, the zeal to make a difference, the pride Yahoos take in their products, the ever-ready to party attitude – really, no words. Every Yahoo is an amazing individual, and its been an honor.

As such, Bangalore was a completely new city for me – I didn’t know anyone here. Nonetheless, I haven’t felt lack of friends here – a dozen of IIITians, really friendly joining batch at Yahoo!, a wonderful team – it couldn’t have been better. For these two years, I’ve had another loyal friend which I didn’t mention yet. It is my bike – Bajaj Discover 135 DTSI – which has been a companion in everything I did here.

I’m really bad a remembering paths to places, and even worse in tracing the return path. Still, I feel that Bangalore is one city I know best among all the cities I’ve ever known (including Indore).

My human nature – if I can call it that – has never let me appreciate the importance and role of Bangalore in my life. Its only when time has come to depart, that I’m cherishing a wonderful part of my life in a city which is legen… wait for it… dary! Its just coincidence that its thanksgiving, but I thank everyone and everything from the bottom of my heart, for everything.

Reminds me of the song -

Main pal do pal ka shayar hoon, pal do par meri hasti hai, pal do pal meri kahani hai.
Mujhse pehle kitne shayar, aaye aur aakar chale gaye, kuch aahein bharkar laut gaye, kuch nagme gaakar chale gaye.
Wo bhi ek pal ka kissa they, main bhi ek pal ka kissa hoon, kal tumse juda ho jaoonga, jo aaj tumhara hissa hoon.
Kal aur aayenge, nagmo ki khilti kaliyan chunne wale, mujhse behtar kehne wale, tumse behtar sunne wale.
Kal koi mujhko yaad kare, kyon koi mujhko yaad kare, masroof zamana mere liye, kyon waqt apna barbaad kare.
Main pal do pal ka shayar hoon, pal do par meri hasti hai, pal do pal meri kahani hai…

Adios.

After landing

Hundreds of hours have gone by in silence, still this blog is patiently waiting for my next post. I hope some of you have been too. I am supposed to be really Yahoo!excited and astonished after visiting the land of abundance – the U.S.A. It was a nice experience per say, but nothing life changing I think. Just like a good engineer should do, let me break down the whole post into smaller and more readable sections.

The onward journey

That night I could hardly get sleep -  soon it was soon 3 am – and it was time to depart my home in Bangalore. Dad wished me luck, and I set forth my journey to the airport. The first signs weren’t right – the cab’s rear wheel got punctured, but I made it on time for the flight. A lot unending ten hour long journey to London was the first of its kind in my life.

From the skies, I saw the marvelous deserts of Afghanistan. Most other places didn’t interest me much. I munched on the in-flight entertainment system, and had seen most of the movies that interested me. My plane flew over Pakistan, Afghanistan, Russia, Europe – where it finally landed into London. In an hour, we had the next flight – another ten hour journey – to San Francisco. This one was via Greenland and Canada – most of the time avoiding flying long distances over ocean.

The first week

I was the new boy in town – everything unseen, unknown. The traffic was left aligned, and cab rates were sky high. Thankfully, the hotel provided free cabs for short distances, and we clinged on to some other Yahoos for longer ones. The Yahoo! office is a set of 6 buildings, and we need to cross traffic signals to reach them. Initially, it was hard to figure out which route led to where.

The conference

The San Jose Convention center is a marvelous building, similar to a 5-star hotel. The Yahoo! Tech Pulse conference was a really informative one – Yahoos from all over the world showcased some of the finest cutting edge technologies they were researching and developing. The food was nice too. We had the opportunity to visit the San Jose Museum, for the dinner party. Although, it was hard to appreciate the art too much, it was a pleasing experience. One of the ladies there – who was an expert on the subject – was ardently explaining us the art and the meaning behind it.

The first weekend

As planned, I went to meet Tapan on the first weekend. Sudeep bhaiya picked me up from the hotel, and drove us to his place. It was nice meeting all of themBest buds after a long time. I met bhabhi for the first time, she was also warm and welcoming. The next day, we started early in order to visit nearby tourist places.

First we visit the Mystery Spot in Santa Cruz. Its a fun place, gives you the illusion of standing tilted on plain ground, and that your height is changing at different points in that place. Although later we worked out how they would have created the ilAnurag, Tapan, Sudeeplusion, it was fun spending time there.

Then we drove over the 17 mile drive (Pebble beach, etc.), which is a road along-side the Pacific ocean. It has many nice things to see – beaches, golf courses, vintage houses, a lone cypress tree. It was fun clicking pictures at the beach, with icy cold sand. After being tired of fun, we all returned home and dozed off.

On Sunday, Tapan had less time, as he had the return flight at night. We visited his friends in San Jose, and roamed about in downtown. Meanwhile, my team roamed in San Francisco city, without my knowledge. As a result, I missed that fun. But anyways, I am just one, I can’t be in two places at the same time.

The second week

At lunchThe second week began with a new adventure – a rental car. The drives were even more amazing than the car itself – a driver with 1 month experience in U.SA and another with experience of right-hand drive cars. Nonetheless, our courage didn’t reduce due to all this. This week, most of my work was the same what I do in Bangalore.Outside hotel

I bought a new digital camera – Canon Powershot SX20 IS. Its a nice camera – 12.1 MP, 20x Optical Zoom, Image Stabilization, HD Video recording. Although it cost more than a conventional digital camera, I am happy with it, and I hope to click many many pictures with it. I know, I know, buying a camera won’t make me a professional – but its just for my own fun.

The return journey

My returnWith giraffe journey was a bit longer – I started on 11th October 2009, 5 pm PST. I reached on 21st October 2009, 11 AM IST. Actually, I took a Diwali break for 7 days after returning from America. As a result, I was in traveling mode for 48 hours continuously. Going home is always fun. And this time, the fun was doubled as I Take offmet Anirudh, Rahul, Swapnil and Piyush.

Most of the time I was roaming with Anni, seeing movies, playing pool and talking about life. It seems that life is complete only if your dear friend are around you. All of us feel that way. We’ve decided to somehow start living in the same city as soon as possible. Anni’s sisters are getting married in a month’s time, but I guess it’d be difficult to get vacation again.

Everyone at home was delighted to see me. I got a toy helicopter for the kids, and we had to start a round robin system for flying it. Diwali was fun, crackers and eatables. We bought a new television at home – the same one I got in Bangalore – LG Jazz 32LG80FR. It is a great tv, and one of the best for a 32-inch LCD range. I highly recommend it to everyone. On my return, I bought a Tata Sky+ for myself, will be getting it installed soon.

I met a girl – Sidhi – on the Indore-Bangalore flight. She is the daughter of my mom’s colleague doctor and getting married next month. It was fun talking to her, and time went by easier than it would have if I had been alone on a over-night journey back. Amazingly I met Gunjan aka Goozan in my flight too. It had been more than a year I met him, was a pleasant surprise.

Some thoughts

I felt that America might look much better from the outside, but it has many shortcomings too. The best thing is the infrastructure – great roads, awesome flyovers, and amazing information boards everywhere. Even more amazing are the people – patient drivers, law abiding, polite. People on foot have a really easy life in America compared to India, where they have to battle every inch with the incoming vehicle.

I feel their culture is too much into consumerism. They consume more than they need, and huge quantities of everything leads to wastage everywhere. Manual labor is too costly – it is impossible to get a servant for your home. And well, for the Indians there, home is where the heart is, and its definitely not in there.

And…

Moving forward, I am back to Bangalore now. Settling down into normal life slowly. Need to shed the extra pounds I’ve gained, have to resume gym soon. Belated Happy Diwali to everyone!

Before takeoff

This world is a big place, and everyday we face unfamiliar situations, unknown people, unvisited places, unseen adventures. Waiting for anything which is positively unknown or uncertain, is a very delicate feeling – fear mixed with excitement. The brain is rehearsing for every possible scenarios you might encounter, and the heart is dreaming about seeing the unseen, experiencing the unthinkable, something that is pleasantly surprising.American flag

I am taking a new leap in my life, something that hasn’t happened before. For the first time in my life, I’ll be exiting the territory of India, and visit a foreign country – namely The United States of America. I guess there is no better occasion to write about my thoughts about this trip and America than this – a day before taking off.

My fears

America – developed, sophisticated, strict rules. These are the first three words that pop in my mind when I think about that country. The USD to INR conversion (which is about 1:50) is something that haunts me whenever I think about spending dollars. 3 dollars per mile for a cab sounds to me like 93 Rupees per kilometer! I don’t know any place or any mode of transport (except by air) that costs so much within India.

Strict rules – this is something I am scared about. I’m scared that I’ll break a rule, I’ll be fined for something. Renting a car is a cheaper alternative to cabs in America, the only problems being – left hand drive and traffic rules. Its really hard to imagine that the whole car is towards the right from yourself than towards your left. Its really hard to align to the right and overtake from the left. And then there are things like stop and yield!

India sounds so much more safer compared to this ordeal, even though we all know how India is. Perhaps its just my fear of the unknown, the fear that I’m a foreigner for them, not a citizen.

The excitement

That was about my fears, but I’m really excited too! The most exciting part of the whole trip is the main purpose of my trip – Tech pulse, the annual event in Yahoo! to showcase innovations and technologies. Being one of the presenters, it sends a chill in my backbone, but the excitement of meeting all those amazing engineers and researchers is much more.

My childhood friend, Tapan, also lives in the US. The other most exciting part of my trip is meeting him. Being with old friends is like living a dream – you are living an exciting present, along with cherishing a wonderful past. He is coming over to Sudeep bhaiya’s (his brother) place. We’re going to get crazy and have fun time like old days.

Silicon valley is one of the exciting places to be in America. There are a lot of software companies, colleges, developed cities and beaches. The weather is pleasant at this time of the year. Perhaps this is one reason I’m giving it a serious thought to rent a car there even after all the risks involved. Kapil, Rajat and Prabhakar are going to be around during my 14 day stay there. I hope we can find some places to visit and enjoy.

American chocolates are one thing I am crazy about. There is so much variety, and the taste is quite different from our good old Dairy Milk. Dark chocolate is something I really enjoy eating – and I’m going to eat a lot of it, and get even more to India. Do you want some?

Conclusion

As you can see, I’ve already figured out a whole lot of information about America, and the things available there. This is like writing an encyclopaedia on swimming without entering the water. The REAL America is waiting for me there – miles away! I hope this trip is more fun than tragedy. Wish me luck and hope some people will miss me here.

Adios.

Chronologically elongated

Time has slowed down today, if not halted completely. It feels as if I am Spider-man, seeing the world in slow motion.time I spend hours doing something only to realize that its been a few minutes. I sleep near morning, still manage to wake up on time and don’t feel sleepy. I finish my work before working hours are over, and the night just doesn’t come so soon whatever I do.

I have no idea whats happening to me. It feels like I am in love, the only problem though is that there is no one but me.

Am I going to meet someone new soon?

Chennai trip

Panchhee, nadiyaan, pawan ke jhoke… koi sarhad na inhein roke, Sarhadein insaano ke liye hain, socho tumne aur meine kya paya insaan hoke?Marina beach

(Translation: Birds, rivers, the wind… no border stops them. Borders are for human beings, think what did you and I gain from being human?)

These lines make their importance felt when you need to cross international borders and venture into other countries. Every country requires citizens of other countries to get a visa before entry in them. Visa – an endorsement made in a passport that allows the bearer to enter the country issuing it – this word has been governing my life since the past couple of weeks. Countries are generally too skeptical about foreigners entering their territory, and they scrutinize each and every detail (academic degrees, job letters, bank accounts, tax details, salary slips, property documents) about them before issuing a visa.

The US Embassy has its offices in various cities of India – New Delhi, Mumbai, Hyderabad, Chennai – but Bangalore is still awaiting its turn to get one. This led me to start my maiden voyage to the city of Chennai (previously Madras). After a bumpy ride in the plane, I reached the hotel on Thursday evening, along with my colleague – Kapil. The hotel room was a really enticing experience – really cozy bed, television, air conditioner, internet, in-room meals – and the ambiance was awesome.

We had an appointment at 8 AM for the visa interview. Although we reached half an hour early, the queue was long and slow moving. Eventually it was my turn for the final interview after zillions of security checks and queues. As I was going on behalf of company for official work, it wasn’t long before they approved my visa.

One thing I’d like to mention about Chennai is that roads here are cleaner, broader, less congested, well maintained. On the contrary, although its steadily improving, Bangalore has narrower roads and traffic jams are very frequent. The bus system “seemed” nice, but as I didn’t use it, I can’t give any opinion. The driver didn’t seem to understand Hindi at all, not even a word. Since ever I’ve known about this city, I’ve heard that people here don’t like Hindi speaking visitors. They pretend not to understand Hindi even if they do, and discriminate against them. I really wanted to find out the truth, but I didn’t get the right circumstances in this trip.

After checking out of the hotel at 11 AM, we had a whole day left with us and company car at our disposal. We decided to see the Marina beach, as most people had asked us specifically to see the beaches. This beach is really huge, both in width and length. The sand is unbearably hot near the city end, and it gets wetter and cooler as we approach the sea. At first, we removed our shoes and took walks near the coastline, where very diminished waves touch the toes.

Nearby, other groups were undressing and going into deeper water – splashing the water and having fun. Tempted by the whole scenario, we decided to do the same. We walked into the water – till a point that we felt was safe enough to stand at – and faced the waves splashing all over us. Many-a-time a wave would come,  go over our heads and throw us back towards the land. Unrelenting, we’d again get up, hold hands and walk into the water for the next wave.

I tried to build castles in the sand, but every-time I’d finish building one wall, a wave came and washed away the whole thing. It was fun trying to protect the castle with my body, but still the wave won eventually. After playing in the water for a couple of hours, we decided to dry up and go elsewhere. A layer of salt had deposited on my body everywhere, and I can’t even tell you where all the sand got into.

After dressing back and shuddering off the sand, we commuted towards the City Center Mall. It has been so many years that we’ve been seeing malls, and this was just like any other. Too many shops, too many people, food courts at the top floor, a multiplex inside – all things you’d expect from a mall. Apparently the mall was constructed very recently, but the building has been given a positively antediluvian look.

It was 3:30 PM by the time we were finished roaming the mall. As there was not much time left for the return flight, we decided to take away some burgers and cold drinks from KFC. We reached the airport well in advance and waited for the boarding announcement. In an hour, the plane landed at the Bengaluru International Airport. It was a relief in terms of the weather – 24 degrees celcius, and really pleasant. Chennai on the other hand was really humid, and it was hard to pass the day as we’re accustomed to this pleasant weather in Bangalore.

On a different note, Kolkata is the only metropolitan city in India, that I’m yet to visit. Lets see when that happens.

Happy weekend, adios!

Talking like a loser

The heroes of reel world are generally depicted as really interesting, astonishingly good looking, multi-talented and ethical beings. They are good in studies, excellent in work, singing, dancing, fighting, all sports – you name it. More than all this, they are complete in themselves, not waiting for people or some life partner to fill in the voids of their lives.

Most of us (especially myself) aren’t reel heroes, we’re just normal people – aam aadmi a.k.a. mango people. We have shortcomings, we’re not master of all traits, we needLoser someone’s company to suppress the loneliness within. We make mistakes, we do unethical things, and sometimes we aren’t proud of what we do. Most of our days are boring, uneventful (go to office, see tv, eat, sleep), dull, lonely, sleepy.

Some of us do so-called interesting things like making music, acting, playing cricket and so on. However, most others are boring – policemen, doctors, engineers, firemen, servants, businessmen, lawyers, armed forces. Such people are expected to do other ‘interesting’ things in the form of hobbies – play musical instruments, play indoor games, paint or even narrate jokes. Those who don’t do anything else but their jobs are termed boring and serious.

A (music) composer is someone very interesting. He is creative, artistic, imaginative and what not. So is a painter who can make blank white sheets of paper speak a thousand words through colours. A software engineer (like myself), on the other hand, is intelligent no doubt; but he is geeky and dull. That is perhaps no one can hear the rhythm of his designs or the colours of program code.

This reminds me of the new advertisement from Intel on the television. The one in which they depict how heroes are, at Intel – intelligent, smart scientists who don’t look so good, who can’t dance well – but still people adore them for their work.

All these thoughts are flowing through me. Perhaps more so because I am alone, I get so much time to retrospect. I have come to this conclusion that I’m not really one of those reel heroes, or even someone remotely close to being interesting or complete. Nonetheless, the optimist in me doesn’t let me lose. Things may get as bad as they can, but I still hope that future will be brighter.

This is one of my low days, so I’m talking like a loser. Anyway, here is a concluding song.

Zindagi ki yahi reet hai, haar ke baad hee jeet hai. Thode aansu hain, thodi hasi, aaj ghum hai to kal hai khushi…

Translation:

This is the cyle life follows, success comes only after failure. There are some tears and some smiles – if today there is sadness, tomorrow there’ll be happiness…

Social networks

For whom am I writing this post? Who are the readers? This post has been re-drafted five times, and only the people mentioned before are to blame. This is my personal space, my personal diary, why should I write what they want to read?Facebook

Explosion of social networking sites have done something similar. Facebook sends updates to all my friends of each and every click I perform. Many other sites, including Yahoo! Connection Updates are following the same thing. All this is no doubt increasing the amount of time people spend on these sites – people sit and read what their friends are doing, people read about the girl they’ve a crush upon, and whom she talks to, people sit and mock how stupid some of their classmates or room-mates are behaving, and so on.

These social networks don’t aim to bring people closer. There is no formula to do so. All they want is more and more people registering for their service and using it. The more number of people use them, the more advertisements they can show, and the more money they can make.

I fear saying hello to my dear friend on her ‘wall’ or ‘scrapbook’, because it sends a notification to the remotest contacts, that I’ve sent her a message, a scrap or even a poke! I can’t imagine how awkward it’d get if one of those contacts was my dad or mom or little sister. I’ve a couple of hundred contacts in my friend-list on each social networking site, but still I can count the total friends I have, on fingers of my right hand. My phone book is full of numbers, but I can’t figure out even one number to call when am lonely.

We’re living in a world of cyber interaction, and its only ironic that we love the theme of our new facebook, but – the rising sun, the sea shore, the midnight moon – all these are the same old for us. “Did you checkout the new Yahoo! Homepage?” is more commonly heard than “Isn’t the rising sun so very beautiful?“. By the way, check out the new Yahoo! homepage, its really cool.

The platform of chatting gives us immense ease of interaction. We can speak our heart out without any fear, as we remain mostly anonymous. We can act stupid, reveal our darkest secrets, or just talk and have fun, who cares? We fall in love with our chat friend (platonic love), we want to see him/her everyday. Whom do we really love actually? Its just a sleek looking contact icon, or perhaps her way of typing sentences, or his witty jokes! Whatever happens, you’re not a part of their lives offline – never can be.

Everyone of us goes and meets their net friends once in a while. Its fun too, but if you look closer, its awkward. If not awkward, its a really short lived, pleasant but formal meeting. In your head, you want to run away, and sit in front of Yahoo! Messenger, and talk to that icon – in text mode. This in-person thing, the voice, the interaction, the body language, the looks – its just too much to handle from someone who was just an icon before.

I might be sounding cynical about internet relations, but there is a lot of truth hidden in this. It might not all be very logical, I mean nobody made a rule that two internet friends can’t gel well in person too. It happens sometimes, but such cases can be safely ignored as round-off errors. One more thing that people might argue is, there are friends who had to move away due to a job or studies, what stand do I take in such cases?

Well, whatever it is, the bottomline is, real friends are really really really hard to find. It takes a lifetime to find more than two-three, that too if you’re lucky. This explosion of social networks, flood of interaction, truck-load of friends – is very unnatural. Its not real, its all a world of illusion. Its in their best interests to keep the illusion going, so that people keep using these sites, and keep feeling that they’ve a 1000 friends, and still counting.

One of my favorite quotes would suffice the closing.

Its not a miracle to make a 100 friends, the real miracle is to make 1 friend that’ll be there when 100 are against you.

Intelligent signals

Robo eye“Save fuel” is the slogan everywhere, not only because its getting used-up very quickly, but also because it costs too much. As a general practice, I turn off my vehicle at traffic signals when they are RED. On my usual route to the office, I’ve to stop at 5 such traffic signals. Over the years (its going to be 2 soon), I’ve understood the pattern in which these signals change, and so I act accordingly.

Last week, one fine morning, I was waiting for my lane to become GREEN as usual, when suddenly out of turn it did so. I didn’t understand what happened, but started and moved anyway. Perhaps God wanted me to understand what’s happening, so just about 200 metres ahead, my bike collided with another. The other guy fell down, and got hurt quite seriously, but I was still upright on my bike. After he was sent to the hospital, I realized that my speedometer wire had snapped. I called office to tell that I’ll be a little late.

I took a U-turn and crossed the same signal again, to go towards the service centre. Alas, the service centre didn’t have the required spare part to replace. As it wasn’t critical for the bike to work, I decided to go to office with the damage still there. Now when I crossed the same signal the third time I realized something wonderful.

The traffic signal had become intelligent. It was automatically switching empty lanes to RED and the ones with lot of vehicles waiting to GREEN. In my college years and intern-ships, I’ve worked on and came across numerous projects in Computer Vision that try to solve this problem. It was a good experience to have come across an actual practical implementation of the same. Kudos to the person who built this, and hoping that it’ll help solve traffic problems on a larger scale than just an experiment on one of the traffic signals.

Adiós.