Just a thought.

Lt s try t tlk wtht vwls. ts fn! m b mkng sns?

I wish my chat client had a plug-in to type like this.

Although this song doesn’t have really outstanding lyrics, it is ringing in my heart; only three words – MERA BHARAT MAHAAN.

Thinking about India, and the current situation here, I get a smile – as if helplessly mocking the plight of my nation. This song portrays that emotion very correctly – the tone is happy and rocking, talking about the problems in India, and then proudly (with sarcasm) exclaiming – mera bharat mahaan (India is great).

Adhjal gagri chhalkat jaye – a half filled tumbler keeps splashing water out.

We – referring to you and I – have become self praising machines with half baked knowledge. We seek recogntion and love by various means – telling people, blogging, social networking – and so on. Our victory isn’t complete until someone else puts a stamp on it saying – APPROVED.

IMHO, instead of asking people to comment on how awesome we are, we should constantly try to compete with our own selves. We shouldn’t do something so that later we could go back and blog about it. We should do things because we’re passionate about them, and it’d give us satisfaction to do it – whether or not anyone is watching or approving.

I feel I was someone like that in college days – perhaps all of us are. We share our life with so many people in college – there is no need for social attention. Hence, we concentrate on what really matters. Life after college is a little bit different, everyone is busy and yet so lonely.

I don’t think a lonely life is reason enough to sacrifice our passions and start being ’social’ as a replacement. Its weird that I’m blogging about this too!

Long distance relationships – they’re fun and hard at the same time. This isn’t a long philosophical post about them, so relax . I just thought of something, wanted to share with you all.

“Wherever you are, we’re under the same sky looking at the same moon” – well, not really. The distance of Hyderabad from moon is perhaps slightly different from that of Bangalore.

Its not the same moon – perhaps a moon after a really small fraction of time – not the SAME moon, duh!

PS: Lovers across India-USA, you guys are doing just fine!

24 – what does this number mean? Six times four, three times eight, two times twelve – can’t really measure how much is 24. The day before yesterday, I turned 24 years old.

I don’t know if I’ve achieved enough, reached where I should have been or not. I don’t really have a plan for life, or for every birthday. I don’t have a definite field to excel in, I just want to do well in everything I do. There is such a vast and diverse set of things to do, I know I can never do everything. I can still try to learn more than average Joe.

I’m really passionate about a lot of things – computers, driving cars, writing, environmental issues, national issues;  playing volleyball, table tennis, cricket, pool. I feel I’m really bad when it comes to music. I really wish I could sing well, and play some musical instrument. Perhaps, that is target numbero uno for my 25th birthday.

Time and again, some people have accused me of being immature. I hope I’ve matured enough to abate their grudges. As one of my friend rightly put it, I’m a 24 year old boy – not man.

Single – this tag has hung around my neck for quite some time now. Is a good thing? Is it a bad thing? Am I losing out on some things? Am I ‘preserving’ myself for someone special? Or its just excuses as no one really likes me?

This is what I’ve become – a 24 year old single guy. I’m happy with myself, but my thirst for more is yet to be satiated.

PS: Thanks a lot for the birthday wishes.

PS2: My cell phone number has changed, please ask me.

PS3: I really wish if you could give your opinions (good or bad) and suggestions for me and my life, apart from the usual well wishes.

Assuming prior knowledge of ‘3 idiots’ for the reader.

This song is my current favorite since so many days now; the best song from that movie in my opinion. Today, I wandered into a flashback of my life. I realized that so many dear ones have left me during the course of journey.

This guy, really cheerful, sweet, emotional, someone who’d do anything for a friend; my friend since class 1 – we used to be like brothers back in  1996. Then I moved on with my life, met so many new friends. We never really tried to keep contact, don’t know why. The treasure of my entire childhood, knowing the 10 year old me – it was safe in his heart. He died sometime back.

I’ve seen and heard a lot of people die. Some of them were really close to my heart. A few haven’t actually died, but circumstances have made them as good or as bad as dead for me.

I guess in trying to live my own life, I’ve become a really self-centered person. The zeal with which Aamir and other college mates of Sharman try to bring him back to life – I really miss being that kind of person. Perhaps the work pressure, and my endless greed for more is to blame.

Can’t gather courage to write more. It’ll be too meaningless and hollow to say that I love you my friends, and I really care.

Adios.

We all like to remain in places, and among people we’re familiar with. Somewhere deep down, everyone of us dislikes a really big change. This new year has brought a plethora of changes in my life. I don’t live in Bangalore anymore, I don’t work for Yahoo! anymore, I don’t live around the same people anymore.

I feel like a 5 year old boy who doesn’t know the city roads, who needs to be guided for everything. Even simple things like “going home” seem too complicated, because I don’t know which turns to take, apart from the confusion of left or right.

I feel like a college fresher once again, the way I was when I joined Yahoo!. When I was working in Yahoo!, I was deeply involved in my project, I knew stuff, and people could depend on me. Suddenly, I’m someone who is very new, who is “learning the basics”, who needs to be spoon-fed, who can barely walk on his own.

At least on the front of people, its pretty much fine. Sure I miss being with all my buddies in Bangalore, but the folks in Hyderabad are pretty awesome. Thats the only peace of mind I have right now.

In one month, you can’t stop loving someone/something. I’ve been a proud Yahoo since ever, and its hard to stop being one. Amazon is very new to me, and I’m not involved in anything critical at the moment. This has led to an identity crisis within me, I’m no longer a part of Yahoo!, and I don’t feel a part of Amazon either.

Hopefully in the months to come, I’ll get acquainted to my new life. On a side note, how many of you have experienced such a thing?

My mental state can be described right now as – blank, disturbed, directionless, confused. Its a weird feeling, and I don’t get those often.

The rhythm of life is a harmonious melody which flows through us each day. Slight variations don’t have much effect, but one bad note disturbs the whole setup. Everything else that follows sounds harsh and irritating.

Perhaps the right thing to do is – pause for a few moments, take note of the situation, re-calculate direction and move on. If there is no one to cheer you up, get up on your own and start rolling. Perhaps this is one quality that I feel I possess, and use often.

Anyways, so this is me saying – cheer up man; all is well – to myself.

Adios.

We’re living the final 24 hours of 2009. It would be too boring if I sit down listing everything that happened during this year.

The two biggest life changing things that happened to me this year would be – my first ever foreign trip (to California), me leaving Yahoo! (as an employee, although I still bleed purple).

We all want a bright future (why not, after-all we have only one life to live), we always plan something or the other. Every plan has a theory, as to why it’ll work out. Whenever asked about our plans, we explain the plan, and convince the other person with our theory.

As for me, I don’t see a definite plan right now. I don’t have a theory as to why the current state is the best possible. Most of my plans are more of intuition and gut feelings; it has been like this from the time I was a little baby.

I discovered something new about myself today, I don’t repent on, crib on the past. What is done is done, tomorrow will be a new day again!

Anyways, tomorrow is 1 January 2010. Happy new year everyone. Hope this year brings prosperity and happiness in your lives.

Not that I get too many original thoughts, but it is a fair disclaimer that the current post contains a lot of borrowed ones. Avatar, the movie, is an awesome fictious creation, nonetheless it has many thought provoking concepts.

Since ever our cultural history has taught us that our body is only a medium to interact with the world, and it perishes with time; what remains is the soul. This unscientific concept feels so logical now.

The voice that speaks inside our head, that makes us feel the presence of an “I”, what is it?

The body is like a really well designed machine, which takes instructions from the brain. The brain is a really well designed processor that computes things on the input it receives, and the memories it has stored. Everyone’s “processor” computes different outputs even if the inputs are exactly same.

For simplicity, I could say, all persons have identical brains, but different software running on it, so that everyone has a different “business logic” for the same inputs. If I could copy this software and data elsewhere, on a new brain, there would be a new “me”.

Building upon this, I wonder why we have only one conscious state? What if we had 2 bodies and 1 brain controlling both? Unlike the movie “Avatar”, if our brains are so powerful (and things like split personality have been seen), perhaps it should be possible to control more than one body at a time. It is as good as being in 2 places at the same time!

Building (more fiction) upon this, what if I had 2 brains and 2 bodies that could communicate? Then, I would be like a distributed organism living inside two bodies, and my thoughts would be distributed among two brains!

Think. Adios.